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I want to get one of those blood sugar testing devices like diabetics have. I put sugar in my coffee just now to see what that will do. Not much, not a whole teaspoon.  It's surprising there was even sugar here. I don't think I have ever used sugar in my life.

My father-in-law was diabetic. I don't know anything about it except that whatever version of it he had was the bad one and he got it late in life which was also bad. I never saw anything like that in my life. I had no idea that's what diabetes was. I thought it was like a dietary thing. It wrecked him. Among everything else, he would have these psychotic episodes - that I believe were precipitated by low blood sugar - and then they could be mitigated with like orange juice or candy. That's the crazy extreme. But clearly blood sugar somehow effects cognitive processes - along with everything else.

The reason I'm even interested in this is that I noticed I am always in a very low mood in the morning. They go away quickly and there's nothing at all going on in my universe that would cause me to be unhappy so I knew it was some physiological thing - and that means blood sugar. I only eat one big meal a day at around 9 pm. I never eat breakfast or lunch. There has to be a correlation to those brief episodes of artificial depression. It only lasts about an hour. The only thing I do in the morning is drink coffee with milk in it, which has got to be some kind of sugar. But it takes a while.  Weird how that can affect your perception of reality.