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I don't think I've ever had a real job for more than a few months. But I get by. Probably have some kind of like borderline personality disorder. I can't really fully mesh with society or have a normal social life. But as far as it goes, I've adapted which is more than most people do. Probably all contractors are like varying degrees of sociopaths. We talk about it. It's not a job, it's a lifestyle that is mostly not optional but also preferable. We basically can't do anything else and remain productive...like gypsies or truck drivers or something. It's a psychological subset.

Was officially diagnosed by the VA as being bipolar with borderline personality disorder. And some other stuff. Hell I just live day by day. When I was a little kid I wanted to be left alone. Enjoyed being by myself. But I like being with Sally because we each have our own space.  I figure since suicide runs so hard in my family I'm doing ok so far anyway. But I really don't make long range plans. Nothing is certain in life but death.