Topix Underground

I have some blood or brain chemistry issue wherein I'm agitated and depressed when I first wake up but it passes fairly quick. Blood sugar or "cortisol" ....or caffeine addiction?  I'm going to smoke some pot and drink coffee as a preventative measure - cover all the bases. Being human sucks. I'm 63 and almost my whole life has been spent trying to make money or stressing out about trying to make money. What a travesty. Our worth as people is measured that way too. we're all just peons. There will be a momentary pause by a handful of people when we die and maybe a couple that are deeply hurt but we will be largely and quickly forgotten. I've lived my life like and insect, toiling in dirt so the next generation can go on. We live well. I've had fun along the way but there's no deeper meaning to any of this. I really do hope my skull ends up as a drinking accessory in like a frat house or motorcycle gang clubhouse so I can live beyond the grave in made-up stories. I should make a will or something.