Topix Underground

Wow man. My dreams of some kind of ‘empty nest’ freedom and financial relief didn’t even exist long enough for them to be ground to dust utterly. It’s a nightmare. My wife has come unglued.She’s ‘face timing’ with my daughter while she’s walking in the door in the evening and when I go to sleep, she’s still doing it. I can hear her talking to the phone from the othe room. I don’t even know if the phone works. I’ve just been avoiding her. I haven’t eaten since September but I’m finally down to 165. I’ve been living on reefer, peanuts and coffee. This winter’s going to be like the GD Donner Party. I just know it. She’s going to chop up the mules to buy plane tickets. Homeostasis for me is just a state of being screwed. I have to make peace with that.